Only you know what sorts you out. You are the best judge of whats best for you.
Personally i do not suffer from lifes curveballs. (Stressing solves nothing)
One thing that helped me through life was what my uncle always said to me:
The measure of a man is not by what happens to him, But by how he handles it....
Also i have never had any smoke which causes me panic attacks so i am not the best person to offer advice.
Big buddha Cheese is a wonderfull smoke that i rate highly. But whether it suits you only you will know.
Hope you find something that works for you.
Should be fun trying many different strains. ATB