I too hear what you say, it's keeping me alive, but to talk about it out loud would be a death sentence.

Did run into an option that is making me think. Was at a talent show in my area(grandson 13, plays grateful dead stuff really good). Local tv guy wants to make his name, by doing a reality weed show. He claims anonymity, but I question if those masked guys, garner much support. But someone told him of my survivors club and he thinks that's an angle.