hello. life without cannabis is not lethal. it sucks, but you can live without it. you are stressing too much, and it may be just the anxiety of moving. when i was in my early 20's, moving really excited me. i may have a more adventurous gene. Colorado is not that far from you. even if you had to beg for a tank of gas, you could get back home. some areas of Colorado are more conservative than others. perhaps you should request a more specific destination within Colorado. Colorado is a generally more beautiful landscape than Wisconsin, so you may stay there whether you get your Red card, or not. staying away from gateway drugs alike Tylenol is probably what is keeping you sane. good luck with the process. perhaps only stating to a physician not being legal has been making you paranoid enough to move will be enough for a prescription. I am not familiar with Colorado doctors.