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Anyways bro, at the end of the day, weed is not for everyone. I got a good friend of mine that doesn't like to smoke weed, not because he is against it or hates it, but because he get extremely paranoid and gets some pretty bad panic attacks. you might possibly be one of those people that can't really enjoy weed because of anxiety/panic attacks/paranoia. But then again, I kinda think you are just being overly paranoid. like you were paranoid about getting a panic attack, and thinking too deeply about it, to the point where you caused yourself to panic.

I think you just got to get yourself in a very relaxed setting and smoke some bud and do something to keep you occupied and not being paranoid about anything. I ussually go over a friends house and play some video games while we smoke some blunts, and ussualy everything goes smoothly.