:thumbsup:MacDawg..Pay It Forward and pass on your knowledge. You have volumes, I am waiting to see you share! It is not a requirement to toke, to be here! However, it makes life easier!

I am still learning, plenty. Most here, have enlightened me, beyond belief. And will jump in, if they can add, I sure hope?

And I look forward to learning from you, as well!

It wasn't until earlier this year, I started 'grinding' instead of using scissors!
There is plenty to learn and no ONE person will know it all, however, there are exceptions!

Up until I received my mmj rec, I had no clue, "How To" or, "what with". Right here, I was 'steered' into the correct directions.

Hopefully, some others will drop in and 'own' their own experience, and share.

You'll need to evaluate yourself, even more. At the times, you desire to medicate the most, do a "check" in of sorts. And look more into how you are feeling; physically and mentally. You may get some 'self' clues, that way, as well. Pay closer attention, to see if you have these same feelings in a severely limited capacity? and when toking, they become extreme?

Possibly, you have these symptoms lying at rest or in small 'play' and the mmj is simply exacerbating them, immensely. Often, like getting a splinter. You notice it, long after you get it. If you can get more in touch with your inner self (and you seem to be trying hard)..you may be able to figure out, what tips this re-action off, of yours. It may have nothing at all to do with the herb. However, only YOU can figure that out.

Many of us have deep religious beliefs or something inside us, that keeps telling us, we are doing something wrong. We can have personal conflicts, within us. We have so many factors, that can change, what we 'feel' is 'our' 'norml.'

I must admit, the first few times I had a brownie, I felt calm and no high. To me, feeling calm and relaxed IS a HIGH!

I would suggest you try to get stems and leaves/salad shake to make your budder with. Perhaps the kush grower, will give you some. That would make a high CBD rich mix for ya. imho....Just don't eat very much, or lick your fingers allot! lol And for goodness sakes, if you have a puppy, don't touch the budder and let your pet, near it!:smokin: pr