dude, welcome to Nihilism 101: there is no meaning!

seriously: we're just monkeys with these big brains. our job is to eat, keep from being eaten, mate and have offspring. everything else is bullshit. politics, god, art, blah blah.

sure, it's all enjoyable, it's painful, it's whatever it is... but if you take a step back, look at things from a distance, place yourself on the moon, we humans are quite funny as we go around this planet like we're the biggest fucking thing since ... god himself.

there's nothing wrong at ALL with having the perspective that there's no meaning. actually, it's quite healthy! you open your mind up and aren't narrowed to believing traditions or having all kinds of beliefs that only end up complicating things.