i got that kind of thing last time... i got so fucking paranoid. i thought everyone at the party was talking shit about me, and i was too lost in my own thought/too tired to do anything. so i just sat there and watched the bonfire. i kept noticing my entire body was really tense, but i couldn't relax. terrible. at one point a girl was picking up grass and stuff and throwing it at me, i guess to get my attention or snap me out of it, but i didnt say anything. then a guy threw an empty beer can at me, and i still had no motivation to respond.

i think one guy noticed how tense i was trying not to look, and came over and said "hey, dont worry about it." and then this really drunk guy i know came over and started rambling philosophy with me, which made me feel better.

but i didnt know many people there well... so i guess my point is, never smoke with people you arent totally comfortable with.