Oh, you were serious!
Well, that's different.

Hard to give pragmatic advice.
Always been easy for me.
Been called a very lucky guy more dan once.

When I got root aphid hosed.
Then got burned for my medical budget.
I whined a little bit on the forums.

Found out I had more friends than I deserve.
One of our members insisted on gifting me meds until I could pull another harvest.

We had not met, yet he committed several felonies on my behalf!
That's why I no mention names, but he knows who he is.
Damn fine person, that's who!
Seems the world is full of them.

As for your immediate distress, I hope you are fortunate enough to just want vs. need da weed.
For recreational use, it's a good thing to quit every now and then.
It lowers ones tolerance and increases ones pleasure.

That get's old, though, yah?
So.
I'd go visit all the friends that you turn on when you have some.
One of them has got to have some "deepstash" to share.
Dig out the seeds n stems and run 'em over a screen on mo' time.

Make a cardboard sign that says "Will trim for scissor hash".
Then camp out in front of the Hydro store.

For a medical need, document it.

Then, get in a car if you must, and get a rec. in a medical state.
Then, off to the dispensary.
(Didn't say it's cheap, or easy)

Anyroad, good luck.
Weeze