hey painretreat, thanks. and well to answer your questions, dp and dr stand for depersonilzation and derealization. 2 i started smoking because i have a lot off tings going on, like a bad family life, lost our house and all this other crap.
and also the "panic attack", well what happend was when i was on the couch i was talking to a friend , and every thing was cool. then they got up and said we where going for a ride and when i got up i felt spacy and my depth perseption was off. and it was like i was see in every thing from a third person,,, (also my dad got dp when he was my age when he smoked, so i knew alot abuot it) so i started thinking i was getting that , and i was freaking out , i was sweaty and my heart was racing. and nothing felt real, untill well i fell asleep