Painretreat - My cancer was triple positive, meaning estrogen was one of the things feeding it. The doctor WAS very insistent that I take the hormone blockers, and I debated and went round and round for a LONG time. But a voice inside me said not to take it, that it would further weaken my already bad spine and leave me sexless for the remainder of my life (and who the hell wants that??). One of the reasons I had chemo so long was to treat for the other positives that fed it. But I'm going for quality of life, not quantity. Who wants to be ill for 20 years at the end of their life if they have a choice? I'm done with doctors dictating to me that I have to take pharmaceuticals. (and I could go off on a rant about my experiences, but I won't)

Anyway... the RSO will surely help abate my fears. I feel I will be doing something positive to help me rather than waiting for that dratted shoe. I'll have to try it out to find the right dosage for me, and if I can grow enough to support the dosage I think I need. Plus having some to vape for those trying times when I'd ordinarily reach for my anxiety meds.

Thanks for everyone's help and caring. Maybe some day I'll be able to move to a legal state and help others like the GrowGoddess does.