I feel exactly like you do . I post a new thread that explains it all . You must be closer to my age by the way u write. I'm asking for advice and hopefully then I can pay it forward to someone else. I hope we can become friends so you can help me lol. Thanks for letting me know u went thru the same thing . Now you can help me out with questions. Thanks for being old school like me. Keep in touch. and good luck *** peace Linda