Sorry to hear your situation mate. About all I can suggest is the same as the lad ahead of me- grow your own (or encourage/assist a grower in your area).

Personally, I refuse to purchase my cannabis via the black market regardless of the legal risks for growing it myself; for a lot of reasons not the least of which is risk of adulteration of the end product and the unhealthy consumption of same. Of course they donā??t drag you out of your house and shoot you for growing in my current jurisdiction either.

You just need to weigh your risks and make choices in life. Some decisions aren't easy to make.