Richie, you sound almost like a muslim yourself lol. I dont know all the answers to my stuation, I find it hard that something so good is forbidden but I AM gods slave. He created me. He is first before all others. I heard god loves those he challenges most. I do believ he knows how faithful to him...but then why dont I make my salat five times a day...or any at all? I dont now all the answers but i will find out my own dystany someday. Weither Luc is in it or not. I cant go through these changes alone and Luc and I are partners and we're gunna work things out. I believe since we love eachother so much anything we do can be possable or permissable...hopefully something changes. Anything at all...

BTW, If I werent muslim i'de be buddhist. You know Muslims believe Buddah to be a prophet. He was very wise and peaceful man.

Im really interested in what Lulu has to say...lulu could you give me some advice? Or ocram? Ghostoker? perhaps torog?

I really appreciate everybodys replys, especaily Kuu and richie. Thanks so much guys!!!