Ah..So many things I want to say and so many things I'm going to say. First of all, I personally don't beleive in God or a god. I beleive we all have a spirit, yes. But I refuse to beleive that one superior power rules us all. But I'm not here to change your beleifs, I can respect the fact you choose to beleive.

But, God - would want you to be happy? Would he not. I can't beleive that your god that you worship and respect greatly would banish you to 'hell' for love. Even though that's what the book says, how can you know exactly what god wants? You can't, not until you die and go and "meet your maker". You live your life to be happy and to fall inlove, I beleive that's the ultimate purpose for being here, weather we be put here by your god or someone else's or through the process of evolution or the 10,000 other theories out their - to find the one you love. Enjoy your life and fall in love and go with it. If it were me, I would'nt lose someone I love.

Anyway, I hope you end up happy, I don't know you too well. But your a good person and you deserve to be happy, so good luck.