Let me break out before I break down

[Darkneon420]

The day I met Luc i dident look at him the way I do now...Never have I thought one day i'de be crying over something imaginary, something I spent 4 months dreaming and planning my future for. All now bullshit. When i thought my mind was such a innocent, beautiful, mysterious thing its all gone to hell now. My heart has been breaking since the day my step father said aload its discusting for a muslim women to marry a non believer. And lately my life has been full of God, Luc, and pot. I never saw any point in worrying about anything else. But now that i know the answer that i feared to be true I cant spend the rest of my life with luc. I dont want to be here having a relationship with someone that I love and loves me and we both want to be together forever and then have to split up in the end. Not that our hearts couldent be any more hurt. I dont see why i ever tried to get close to someone because int he end I keep having to go away...breaking all of our hearts...making something live, dead. And for since January 15 I thought I was happy...I dont want to fall in love anymore.

Darkneon420 Reviewed by Darkneon420 on 04-27-2005. Let me break out before I break down The day I met Luc i dident look at him the way I do now...Never have I thought one day i'de be crying over something imaginary, something I spent 4 months dreaming and planning my future for. All now bullshit. When i thought my mind was such a innocent, beautiful, mysterious thing its all gone to hell now. My heart has been breaking since the day my step father said aload its discusting for a muslim women to marry a non believer. And lately my life has been full of God, Luc, and pot. I never Rating: 5

[A Foo Says]

Well, sounds like suicide is the only option here.

[A Foo Says]

Just kidding. xD

[Darkneon420]

lol im too old to give into such selfish actions. Suicide wouldent make anything better.

Im still holding onto hope...

[narkotic]

THIS PISSES ME OFF.

you have every fucking right to be with who you want. the only one ruining it is you.
fuck what your parents say.

edit:
what im tryin to say is that if its a good relationship and you both think youre in love.. your parents cant ruin it; only you can.

[Darkneon420]

THIS PISSES ME OFF.

you have every fucking right to be with who you want. the only one ruining it is you.
fuck what your parents say.

edit:
what im tryin to say is that if its a good relationship and you both think youre in love.. your parents cant ruin it; only you can.

It aint got anything to do with my parents. Its forbidden for a muslim women to marry a non believer. No love for any person isent anything compaired to love for Allah. Thats wats it a bout. I wanna please god because I want to go to paradise where I can live forever happily, get high if I wanna get high, swim with dolphins, and spend my hours talking to prphets and messangers of God. Whats better than that? Im just trying to do what god put me here to do. Its not easy but I pray to Allah he gives me strength. Its got nothing to do with my parents. Just Allah and me. I just need strength...

[jacquelyne]

why is that ?
i know alot of moslem men that have married christian women are there different standards for men ?Also if you are an adult and in love with any race or religion should not matter because what should matter is your own happiness.I know its hard (especially for a moslem woman) but sometimes you need to take control rather that letting the males in your life be superior to you.Moslem fathers and older brothers think they know whats best for you but you should go with your heart and dont be scared to do what you like.I wish you luck as it would be hard for you.I have had moslem girl friends that i grew up with and there fathers and brothers were very strict but the moslem mothers were really cool and nice.If you marry a moslem man you wont have alot of freedom but i guess its what you have to do ?

[Darkneon420]

Because Muslim women are obligated to do as their husbands say. In order to keep peace, and love in the household. But if a muslim women marries a non believer then what would she do if he tells her to serve pork or alcohal at the dinner table? Children in islam take their fathers names, fathers blood, and beleifs. Although Luc wouldent ask of me to do such things its still forbidden. We have no right to question god. What god says, goes. We werent put on earth to be happy, shit if that were true i'de go out and find me some smack. But i know my rights and wrongs I have no intention in doing wrong.

[mellow mood]

wow. i dont get it.

ill start here. i may be young, but please read at list what i have to say.

You know, you got only 1 life? im right eh? so if your a beleiver, god gave you this life. thats a gift. life is given to you? why? existential question... all what we know is to be happy. so what i wanna say is: whatever god u beleive in, dont u think what he wants the most deeply is you to be happy? to you think you wont go to "paradise" because u marry or live with sum1 that has different touhgts, whatever??

seriously, u have 1 life, dont waste it coz of a book sayin u cant do it or your parents or whatever. im sure what god only fuckin wants, if he exist or not, i to be happy and to do our best to make others too. anyway, thats your life, but u should think of it really.

peace and happiness

[kuulbns]

Smoking is also taboo for muslim women, true?