Man I personaly think you just need to relax and take it easy. When I was younger and had the parental pressures of needing to succeed and all of the other BS in my life at that time, I too kinda felt the same as you described and it bothered me as well.
But as I got older and molded my life the way I wanted to live my life, I also mellowed out and got to where I didn't give a rats ass what anyone thought of me. The herb still does has the same effect on me, only now its alot more comfortable and it deffinetly helps me.
My mind set is what changed, not the herb.
I also realized what settings work for me when I indulge. These days I wait untill later in the day when all my work and responsibilites are done and I'm relaxing to some tunes.
Honestly, I love the feeling of spacing out to some killer music while reading the same sentence forty-seven times, and STILL not remembering it!:thumbsup:
MMJ take's me away from the bs in life! ( A lot better than calgon does)