From experience i can say that ive gone through what your going through. The first couple of times smoking 5-10 times i can tell u that i felt different as if my mind was lost, like out of this world feeling, but i couldnt enjoy cause it was so new to me. I was literally like "Wtf is happening to me...". But after continuously smoking for 4years i can tell you learn to love it, if after a couple of weeks smoking constantly or a good amount ull feel different about it but sometimes its not for everyone so good luck on finding it out.

Hope I helped!