I can relate to both feelings. I got weed from the same guy for 10 years. He grew in a cave. Eight or nine months of the year he had the best weed around. When the fresh outdoor arrived there was better weed available for a few months each year. But the guy got busted and I did not have any other regular connection. I tapped an old family friend and he came through with a passable but lower quality product. Anyway that was a while ago.

I stopped for a month then went by a friends house who had some KGB. On the way home I had a moment where I could not remember what I had just done and could not remember why I was where I was. Then just started laughing like a newbie. I was fine of course but I always enjoy those extreme moments.