Need to tweak your methodologies a bit. Im sure reading this forum will help.

Im on my first grow as well, from bagseed. I read up alot on different forums, built my own hydro system, studied nutrients and pH, yadda yadda. Plant is now 6 feet tall, with buds like you see.

It can be done, but you do need to take guidance from the wisdom of this forum.

Edit: Oh forgot, pics are 1 month into flowering.