just my opinion
i think ya may have been,putting the depression in its place with pot
and when ya blazed up,then it wore off,,it came back,
basher depression can rear its ugly head at any time,
at the peak of my life i was depressed,had good job,money,cars, wife, two lovely healthy kids,lots of socializing,plenty of friends,big bags of weed ect ect,everything was going good,yet i felt depressed wiating on it to NOT BE or some shit
seems in my case if ive not got any worry's,it makes me worry
was told by a doc i needed the chaos to feel Normal,if i dont have it then its like expecting a nuke bomb to drop any minute
ive came to terms with it in time and can recognize when it starts(most times)
peace