Sounds like you are having a rough time today I am sorry that I made it worse.Just remember I love you and God does not make junk you are a beautiful person.I also was raised Catholic by my Mother went to school grades one through eight.I went to live with my Father at age 12 and he raised me to be a free thinker boy talk about culture shock I still believe in God just not the Catholic one to me God is merciful,kind,giving,and most importantly forgiving.Well I will get off my soapbox and remember I love you and ask coolslayer for my e-mail addy.