Thank you SO MUCH for all your help. And yes, I am under 30 years old and live in California! lol. I tried smoking (a very small amount) last night to test the waters, and it went fine, thankfully.

As for the meditation, I actually started doing that the same time I started smoking, so hopefully it will help! I will continue meditating. I used to have a therapist, but due to a change of medical insurance, I am unable to go to therapy right now. But I definitely agree that therapy helps!

Once again, I cannot thank you enough!