Sandia,Karma...Thank You!

Karma I really appreciate you sharing that. I was pondering whether I should start a thread and flat out ask if anyone was or had been in the same situation. What you say on keeping it secret makes a lot of sense to me. It reminds me of my guns,wait for it...When I got them I broke them down and thoroughly cleaned them and when I was done I brought my daughter in and said here it is,hold it,touch it now when I'm here,it is a gun,nothing special. I of course don't want her having the curiosity that ends up killing so many kids every day in this country. I keep the shells in a separate place and I have the bolt on the Mauser out still.

I would damn near shoot myself if I found out she was smoking Cannabis in middle school because of me. My wife has also said that we just have to educate her on why I use it. When she turns 21 I would smoke w/ her,at least she wouldn't be puffing dirt weed with who knows what kind of snake oil in it. She is almost 10 and I just feel she is going to be hell on wheels when she is 13! I also know that I hate it when she catches me taking pills(damn I hate that word!!). She senses something is wrong w/ me and I HAVE to get a hold of it and be more "normal".

Again Thank You for sharing. I'm certainly all ears for more suggestions

Oh yeah my Dad works in corrections and has been brainwashed so much over the last 20yrs.It has caused so much grief between us.He was in one of my accidents that contributed to my PTSD and he caused a lot of pain when I was a kid but I love him,he's my dad. We actually just started talking again after another 2 yr hiatus and he admits to a lot of the things that caused us to fight and he realizes that he too got smacked in the head and isn't himself.
We used to go at it with fists,rocks,whatever. Mostly it was me defending myself and damn I could have killed him at times. I was so weak,never fought back with objects and I could never live knowing that I killed my dad,regardless. Everything happens for a reason and it looks like we will now have a loving relationship.All he had to do was say he was wrong and he has.