Dude,first things first,Relax!! like Locks said that isnt common.If you gotta buy on the streets,ask someone you trust who they hookup with.If that happened to me id be pissed,no tellin what would end up happening to that guy. Once you have an awesome rapore(SP) with your guy or guys you have nothing to trip on.I'm on anti-depressants too so I completely understand what your talking about with panic attacks and such,but thats not really what they are for.Anyways cheer up man every dealer isnt a punk ass,usually quite the opposite in my experience.