I'm really bummed about my first harvest. I am seriously debating on throwing everything thing out. Tonight I got to looking at them and started to cut it all down. It's just too damn over whelming too see all that growth and none of it looks like anything I would want to smoke.

I had three plants that grew respectfully well but all the stress I caused them, learning how to control my environment, caused the middle plant to hermie on me. One day I started too see powder on the leaves and it took me too long to figure out it was coming from tiny little flowers that were different then anything else that was growing. I had killed many a male because none of them had the pistols and each had little balls on them, so I thought I knew what I was looking for. These three had lots of pistols and no balls, anywhere. Except one day the middle plant started to flower these banana clusters and powder would pour out everywhere. Little did I know that was pollen. So obviously it didn't take long for the other two plants to get their rocks off on that and pretty soon balls started to show up everywhere. By this time the plants had become too big for their environment I think. The light was getting blocked by too much vegetation which I should have pruned back. I was talked into keeping the vegetation but all that freaking growth prevented the light from getting to the growth that I did want to keep. I'm serious, I don't know what I was thinking, I knew my light was being crowded out by all that damn growth. Additionally, the plant spent soo much energy in my opinion growing new vegetation that I did not get the clustering for flowering that I had expected. I got no major kola which was probably because they were pollinated I guess.

Whatever, SO I chopped everything down thinking I would sort through all the vegetation and cherry pick. The problem is that none of it looks all that good. There is no real stickyness although I can definitely tell one of them is a lemon something or another. My hands are definitely sticky having cut it all down, but again I say it doesn't look like its worth smoking. There appear to be no intensive sections of thc if you know what I mean. Am I just retarded in that I don't realize that the thc is on the inside or something? lol It's not like I really want a ton of vegetation here, right? I dont really know what to do with this stuff. I don't really have the space to hang it and I seriously doubt that it's going to turn into something special overnight.

Maybe I should just chalk this one up to learning and start again. I know a lot more now then I did when I started. I have ideas and tricks that I can try next time around. I just think that even if this stuff is smokable, it's only going to piss me off in how much I have to smoke to even realizing I'm smoking it. I seriously cant stand standing around smoking pot all day long, not usually anyway. I only smoke the stuff that I can pass out on the first hit. Catch my drift?

What should I do with what I have? Should I boil it up in a crock pot with a couple cups of vegetable oil? Or figure out a way to hang it all up? Chunk it? Flush it?