Moody,
You know, I understand that. Not only from the pain side, but also from a cardiac standpoint. Damn doctors are killing me with medicines. Doc, this makes me sick --- well lets add this one and see if that helps.

Right now I have to take a medication (and I am considering just not taking it and suffering the consequence of death) that makes me hurt, depressed, suicidal, and completely lethargic. Cannabis has no effect on it either. So, they pour more medicines. Crap I could bleed to death from one, get an ulcer from another, maybe get a bowel obstruction from another one............all this to make my heart keep ticking????? IS it worth it? Especially when I live in fricking pain all the time anyhow.

I swear the pot is all that keeps me alive. Not because of it's medicinal effects, just because I love to grow it more than I love to use it. Getting way tired of living on the poisons the doc give.