i wouldnt worry about it too much...but i did enjoy reading ur post. u prolly did well in english class eh? its amazing what ur brain can make u think is real.

as for the pulse speeding up and such...its a known fact that if u stand up after sitting down, you will lose blood in your head. then it all rushes back(heart speeds up) then u feel disorented.(being baked amplifies this) all you have to do is get up slower next time. crying is a natural emotion...i wouldnt worry bout that either and the fact that u think ur gonna get retarded from weed is a retarded thought on its own. so maybe u are becoming retarded :O...lol...jk

the cartoon heart...my guess is that its just something random u thought up of, like a dream...but dreams are known to have meanings too...so if i had to guess " I visually saw a cartoonish picture of my heart, with eyes and a mouth, struggling the waves of blood that hit it." to me, means that u are lookin to find love, with no luck...or very little luck.