Welcome. Your story as stated is all too familiar. My hideaway was above Boulder,CO along the divide. A 1/4 of Northern Lights, the wild and I. Man what peace I had there and then. I have been back but nothing was beautiful as it had been before.

Masking symptoms is BS. It's just an excuse for a doc to tell you no. Name one pharm that isn't a band aid. They may be PRN or therapeutic but they don't last as the liars will tell you,sure you know. Cannabis is truly a therapeutic. I don't smoke right now because I haven't obtained the legal right to do so. No matter the strain I would have paranoia for maybe the first week and then nothing but peace in my mind. Good luck to you and KNOW you aren't alone.