Look kiddies thats just the way it is...

If your gonna smoke the MJ than you realize...HEY THIS SHIT MAKES ME FEEL GREAT...but you cant go back now cause that experience is burned into that chipset in your brain (y'know..the one you cant re-format??)

It does its job so damn well that you may start sayin GEE WHAT DID I DO BEFORE I HAD THIS?? so then the months go by and you keep smokin and smokin.. and THEN YOU CANT SMOKE FOR WHATEVER REASON...YOU GOTTA STOP FOR THE POLICE, YOUR JOB ,YOUR FOLKS WHATEVER....

UNFORTUNATELY YOUVE ALREADY CROSSED THE LINE THAT FIRST DAY WHEN YOUTOOK YOUR FIRST COUPLA HITS.....

You are probably depressed like scarlett said (I put alot of creedence in what she says as she is/was a dominatrix and they deal with clients who are multimillionaires with deep seated unfulfilled needs)(not problems.needs.)

Stay clean for awhile, stay in school, and if possible see a shrink about depression....

DONT WORRY PAL IT GETS BETTER