Kyle, listen up my friend. I don't know your background, where you came from, what kind of shit you've been through, where your roots are or what your goals in life are, but none of that matters.

Run. Run as fast as you can as far away from that place as you can. I'm sure there's more to the story but from what I see here, your knees are telling you to get the fuck out. Maybe this is already your plan and I hope it is. Save up enough to get your across the country or to get you anywhere, because things are only going to get worse. My family immigrated from Hungary during the revolution in the 50's. They came here with nothing. You can do it too. You might have to turn your back on a few people, maybe even a few loved ones. It won't be easy, but it will be easier than killing yourself for the rest of your life.

I say this with love bro, cause I myself am working a shit job too. I work in a kitchen at a busy chain restaurant getting paid $9 to cut and burn myself. Don't ever be complacent. Find something you love and are passionate about and do that for a living. You can find a way.