Hey I just wanted to ask what changes in your life do you think allowed you to become enlightened? I don't believe but its not because I want to disbelieve. There are soo many contradictions and ways to spin what humans wrote in the bible that its hard for me to believe. Without the bible just life should make me believe but it doesn't. What was the point in which things fell into place for you to become faithful? I have seen bad things in my life, I know others have it harder then me but even then I just can't understand why things would play out like they have for me and others. I try to be a good person and help others, and I would say without thinking I live in some ways like people who follows the book would live but I still don't feel connected in something bigger then myself. I would like to but its hard when your spirit has been damaged. any advice? thanks in advance for your time.