Where exactly am I supposed to come up with $500 for a grow when I am starving and living in an RV? I did attempt a grow, got some grow bulbs cheap, good cheap organic soil, and a clone, but my RV leaks air like swiss cheese, so I couldn't keep the temp/humidity normalized enough and after a 2 1/2 months of babying her and struggling to keep her warm, my plant died.

As for having a family member be a caregiver.... I'm an orphan bro not an option. My hubby helps me where he can, but he is disabled too.

I no longer have a narcotic safety net, and not smoking for a few weeks is not an option. Plus, to get $500 I would have to not smoke for a month. If I don't smoke, I am incapable of eating what little I have, I cannot walk or get out of bed. I can't bathe myself and the pain turns me into a screaming banshee.

Now, instead of focusing on all the things "I can't" do about my situation, I have made a plan to fix my problems. I have no credit because I've been on SSd/SSI since I was a kid. I DO NOT WANT TO BE ON THE DOLE..... I NEVER DID! I was left with no choice. I have a plan to change this situation, but no way to put the plan into action. I'm not just bitching in this post, I am trying to get someone to help me out so I can support myself.