Donny, listen to my story.....

When I was 18, it was the summer after my first year in college. However, I did not go away to a 4 year college after high school. I continued to live at home with my parents while I went to a local Community College in town. I smoked all throughout high school, all day every day. I smoked in the morning before going to school. I smoked during lunch time. and we smoked as soon as we got out of school. Needless to say, I had AWFUL grades, hence the community college.

I had always been able to smoke with the best of them. I could smoke some of the best weed you could smoke, multiple bong rips, and I'd be fine. Super stoned, but fine.

This is where the story applies to you (I think)
It was the night before I was to get my wisdom teeth out in the morning. I can't quite remember what I did that day, but I think I played a game of pickup basketball. (this will be relevant later on). Anyways, I remember it clearly. I was sitting up in my bedroom when I took a huge resin hit from my acrylic bong. Then it hit me. I couldn't regain my breath. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I didn't know if I had a collapsed lung or if I was having a heart attack or what.

I now know that what I experienced was a massive panic attack. Since then, I have transferred to a 4 year school and live on my own (with roommates.). I had quit smoking and got good grades at community college. It was until last year that I began to experience panic attacks without smoking, so I was put an an anti-anxiety med.

I just recently stopped taking them and am drug free. I also recently got a septoplasty back in December. I discovered I had a deviated septum, in which I couldn't breath out of my left nostril at all.

Now, what I think my issue was, is that my nose became deviated the day prior to my resin induced panic attack. Once that occured, my brain was hardwired, to the anxiety I experienced, and associated being high with my panic attack.

I guess what I'm trying to say to you, is that it's all in your head. You just have to overcome it. I know it's easier said than done, but its possible. Dont push yourself to do something that your body doesn't want to do. Take it easy on the weed smoking. Be patient about it. You'll be able to enjoy it again, just takes time!

Meanwhile, keep those grades up and enjoy your youth, there'll be plenty of other times to get high...! You only get to experience high school once, enjoy it while you can, because its the best time of your life!