hey guys. i moved here six months ago to live closer to my canadian gf. i'm not a 'patient' but hope to be. like so many i'm in :S5::S5:kind of a randy marsh situation: weed is helpful to me, but it's not like i'm lugging my testes around in a wheelbarrow, and i don't have insurance.

i'm a war vet and my ears ring constantly; i will never hear silence again. it's called tinnitus. there is no treatment. lots of people have it, but mine is pretty bad; it was caused by some extreme acoustic trauma. sometimes the noise really aggravates me and makes me bitter and nasty to those closest to me. weed makes me feel much better. i figure i could go to a doc and complain about this but i don't have insurance; i can't PROVE that i have this problem; and it's not exactly a terminal illness. i also don't know what doctor to go to, and i don't expect to be prescribed weed for my ringing ears anyway sadly.

i could always go in and complain about ptsd but am not sure i want to get labeled with that - people judge. it's awkward to know that my health is less than perfect - and knowing that it was a branch of the gov't that hurt me - but not bad enough to get the therapy i feel i need. i feel like i have to make myself out to be more f'd up than i am, which is ridiculous, especially considering that i offered to die for the gov't that won't let me get high.

any advice about how i could go about getting medical marijuana would be greatly appreciated. i know wa isn't the best about medical pot. i've never managed to find weed here - never been high in the state of washington in fact. i walk past people smoking joints downtown all the time on the weekend but i'm not about to go disturb and probably either scare or at least annoy a complete stranger about pot when they're having a good time with friends. so i only smoke it in bc where it's not illegal and even there it's a huge hassle to get, having to go through middle-men, buying tiny amounts, running out & not being able to get more, etc.

i may never get any around here bc i don't have all that many friends. i mean i'm going to college but i'm a grown up & basically engaged so it's not like i'm hanging out or partying. i'm a pretty reserved adult and don't have dreads or tye-dye t-shirts. i'm pretty despondent about getting some unless i can get qualified for medical.

you know how it is, guys. it's like those online ads for "legal buds" that show ounces of green all over a hot woman's body, and it's like, "oh, great, everything i want but can never have."

thanks.