I entirely agree about the long term quitting, I did it for 18 months and now am able to control with just mmj, but I have to be very careful not to abuse it anymore (addictive personality). If you treat it like the medicine it is and have maybe a few tokes a day to every other day I've found it helps, but once you cross the threshold into recreational use, it aggrivates your disorder. Main thing is you need a few months to fully clear it out of your system in order to return to normal. That's what I've found helps, and like you said, Indicas are generally better. I'm able to grow one small plant at a time, since I only smoke maybe a quarter ounce a month, and the rest goes to a friend to pay for the growing. Good luck man, hope you learn to deal with everything soon.