Councilling seems to have put some negative suggestions into your mind.

First step? Tell your brain to shut the fuck up. Take control. Honest. People often talk themselves into negative states when all it takes is a bit of peace in your mind. Repeat the mantra "SHUT THE FUCK UP... SHUT THE FUCK UP"

Second step? What images are going through your head? If you don't like then push them way off into the distance until they disappear.

Third step? Take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Relax. Focus on areas on your body where you are tense. Soften the muscles one by one. You will know when you are doing it right when you have an overall comfortable feeling in your body.

Fourth step? Start giving yourself positive suggestions with your internal dialogue. You will know where your voice is in your mind when you ask "where is my internal voice?" What you hear is what it is. Hypnotists give people people suggestions that create profoundly positive states in their clients but what most people don't realize is that the best and most constant hypnotist is ourselves. We talk ourselves into trouble and we can talk our way to peace. "I am really relaxed and in control." If at any point your mind tells you otherwise... repeat the mantra "SHUT THE FUCK UP... SHUT THE FUCK UP"

Hope this works for you. It does for me.