The mail order system is extremely illegal and easy to catch people with, so stay away from that. Its likely they sent the package, and it was caught by dogs at one of the mail distribution places. Ordering through the mail puts you, your money and the sender in jeopardy, so don't do it. If you can't relocate, your best bet is to grow your own. That way you know the source, and it takes you out of the dangers of dealing on the street with the"black market" kinds of people. If you are worried about the penalties associated with cultivation, just don't get caught! :thumbsup: Realize they aren't gonna actively come looking for you for growing a plant or two for your sick mother; you would have to make it extremely easy for them to do so. All you have to do is not tell anyone about it, and not sell it to anyone. Very easy to do. My advice would be to not do it in an apartment though, I have seen too many news stories where other people in the apartment smell it and call the cops, or the hydro system leaks into the apartment below when you aren't there and they have to come in and fix it and find it, etc. Its just too risky for an apartment, so you'd still have to relocate to a house, but it really is your best option. Good luck and I hope whatever you choose to do works out for you and your mother!