Quote Originally Posted by Twentyinches
Hey I saw that about the house on the past thread. That is awesome you ended up getting it, I have always wanted to live out in the middle of nowhere like that. sweet.

But I wouldn't be sorry life just sucks sometimes. I hate when shit happens all at once, I'm waiting for my streak of months to come to an end. When it gets hard for me I always refer to Marly to get me by.. Singin': 'Don't worry 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.' :rastasmoke:
whatever gets you through hey lol music helps me too all kinds even at the moment as i have my new teeth and singing plenty to get used to them. :-)

there are many things in my life im sorry for and alot of things that were beyond my control, if i can learn to let go of feeling that way it would prob go a long way to helping me in my future. unfortunately i am the kind of person who seeks resolution to events or wrong doings and i have to adjust my self and release that need as others arent all ways willing to aid in the process of conclusion and i find that hard.

on a happier tone ive also taken up tai chi to help me and it really does lol im loving it, an its harder than it looks been doing it 4 days a week an feel it getting easier an strangly feeling more at ease.

i also havent been on medication through most of this as i realised i was making myself feel bad because i failed again an was back on them. i stopped taking them, i made the decission i had to fight through it and feel every bit of it an if i made it through this time i know i can and without my meds now just by putting other things in place to make me feel better and raise the chemicals in my brain naturally an i again think tai chi was a good way of doing this, for me anyway.

im rambling on now soz bout that lol


(please dont anyone confuse what i was saying about meds, NO ONE should ever feel bad for needing medication to treat depression, this was only my personal feelings in my situation and everyone is different, ive been living with and trying to fight depression for years and i wont give up trying to have a med free stable minded life just yet its just me i dont like conventional medicines)
devils dream Reviewed by devils dream on . following my recent "why does everything have to happen at the same time" thread, soz a big sorry to all the people who had to suffer my rantings in my "why does everything have to happen at the same time thread" i am glad to say after going away and giving myself a giant talking to and getting on with things and a little time to heal and recover from my operation, things are funally looking up! :) after so many things going wrong or set back after set back we have finally found the perfect house, and been accepted its in the middle of nowhere on a farm surrounded by fields Rating: 5