I wasn't going to post today, but I had a crazy epiphany so I thought I might share. Weed has been making me more analytical about what I say and do. I used to think people were judging me all the time. I've been afraid to just 'let myself shine' so to speak. It had gotten to the point where I would just wait for the weekend (not to hang out w/ friends and GO DO THINGS), but to spend every day of the weekend alone, blazing because it was just habitual. I was kind of... afraid to let go of weed and experience life for what it was, in it's RAW, UNALTERED state. Life can be tough and full of drama, but you need to form yourself into a unique fixed point in your head so that no matter what bullshit life throws at you, you will ALWAYS know who you are. I forgot what that even felt like. The thing is... when you simply LIVE and stop caring about people's judgements... this is what LIFE really is!

I had forgotten what the limitless potential of my mind was, I could "be in the moment", totally fulfilled, seeing only the positive in things without weed. Weed was useful, initially, to show me this STATE was possible. However, unlike some of my friends, hanging out with people doesn't always have to lead to whipping out the bong because there's "nothing else to do". Have fun! Fuck around with people, be cool, meet cool new people, have adventures!

These are my thoughts so far after meditating for the past week, I'll continue to do so, and see what epiphanies come NEXT!