i guess i was hoping someone else out There may have been through similar problems and tho i don't expect anyone can give me overall advice i hoped for some little bits Anythin that might help me get through this time. as i have no one i can really talk to or even sound off to about all this shit so i turned to airing my suffering on here to try and get through it an to see if this type of thing is happenin to anyone else or just me.