why does everything happen at the same time?

[devils dream]

im just going to have a rant here and tell you all about what's going on with me at the moment. firstly im 24 and at the end of this month having all my teeth removed and false ones fitted. i have a phobia of dentists and it's taken me 5 years to be able to force my self to go but i have been through so much agony even pulled a few of my own teeth out and was even described as looking like i was being shot in the face it literally knocked me backwards. turns out There have been bigger problems and the only thing they can do is surgery. i am terrified and on top of that i have to move out of my house just 3 days after my surgery in 4 weeks time and we have no where to move to and with three kids and summer holidays im finding the packing hard going. to make things worse my boyfriend has become depressed and has blames me for it, he is seeing a councillor once a week but that's it and he is having temper issues and all though he hasn't been violent yet im worried he will end up lashing out as he seems unable to stop his emotions from spiraling out of control. what's worse is i know this is related to his low mood but that doesn't make it any better. i can.t sleep at night and feel like im being dragged down by everything and i don't know if i can manage this time.

devils dream Reviewed by devils dream on 08-11-2009. why does everything happen at the same time? im just going to have a rant here and tell you all about what's going on with me at the moment. firstly im 24 and at the end of this month having all my teeth removed and false ones fitted. i have a phobia of dentists and it's taken me 5 years to be able to force my self to go but i have been through so much agony even pulled a few of my own teeth out and was even described as looking like i was being shot in the face it literally knocked me backwards. turns out There have been bigger problems Rating: 5

[killerweed420]

I hate dentists too. Had my uppers done a log time ago and when I get a few extra bucks going to do my lowers too.
Tell your boyfriend to smoke a little ghanja. Hard to upset when you're high.

[devils dream]

i am terrified about the op as the consultant has warned me there's an increased risk of nerve damage to my jaw and face due to deformed roots. and the thought of going under general anesthetic worries me enough. my boyfriend and i do want to have relationship counseling to help us communicate more effectively but typically we don't have enough money right now to do it. we also can.t afford to ren't privately so are waiting for help from the council my son is autistic so we need to stay in the same town as his school so he can continue to receive the support he gets. unfortunately houses round here are scarce so it looks like we will be homeless on september 8th and as a mum of 3 i can.t think of anything worse than letting them down so badly. i haven't slept in weeks through worry and anxiety even meds from the doc didn't help.

[JohnnyZ]

I've had general anesthetic five times now. I love going under. You have nothing to be worried about, and hopefully you get a cool anesthesiologist. When I had my wisdom teeth out the guy was listening to Mellow Yellow as he put me under. That was trippy awesome. Let the anesthetic start to sink in and then focus on one spot and fight the urge to pass out, you trip out for a bit and experience a little drug induced euphoria for a second or two before you're Doctor Gonzo. This kinda makes me sound like a druggy when I write it out.. oh well.

I feel bad for you but I don't know what to say about your problems. Your right everything kinda got shit on you at the same time. I have a lot of respect for you cause you haven't given up yet, not sure if I could do that. At least you can be proud because you're one tough cookie.

[devils dream]

i cant help but wonder how many times one person can screw things up and have so much shit happen year in year out before they cant beat it any more. how many times can i go through this before i lose? no matter what i do or how hard i try it just never seems to get better long enough to relax for a while is that really so much to want out of life it's not like i expect life to be perfect all the time but to feel settled once and a while to not have major problems lingering over me every month to have a little time to enjoy the small things again without having big things to worry about. is it really that unrealistic? can i ever actually achieve it?

[devils dream]

i have got so much going on in my head it's 4am an i haven't been to sleep to much worryin to do so i thought id get my phone out and distract myself an ended up on here again. see i was wondering if people could give me their opinion on something. my boyfriend recently got diagnosed with depression and a few weeks ago he blamed me for it. outright said he felt i was the cause of his depression and stands by the comment. i just cant get it out of my head. is he right? could i be the reason he is depressed? i cant help worrying he is right and that it's me as my ex was depressed and aggressive was that cos of me too. and if it's me how do i change it?

[irydyum]

So what if he's depressed? You have a bunch of things in YOUR immediate future that you need to concentrate on. Yourself, and your kids wellbeing being number one. I'm sure you know that, but what is he doing to support you through this shitty time? If anything.

[NextLineIsMine]

Well you've already got your baggage, now you just need a plane ticket and you're good to go, positivity

[devils dream]

my bf an i have been together a year an a half tho that's not very long we.ve had a lot of troubles in that time mostly circumstantial things that neither of us could prevent just go through and try to fix and we didn't do too badly at it an overcame problems its over the last 4 months that things have changed since depression started the pressure got to him and i can.t blame him when it gets to me too. im sure he'd probably say i wasn't doin much to support him right now and that's because im barely able to handle me let alone be support for someone else. also in his defence the problems with my teeth stem from my phobia of dentists and he has been There every step of the way to hold my hand take me to and from appointments and even acted as middle man to get me go with a dentist as i couldn't bring myself to do it. so to go back to my original question... could it be my fault he is depressed? and also to top things off for me at the moment my window got smashed yesterday by my next door neighbour mowing

[devils dream]

.... his lawn sendin a stone flyin into my window. he didn't notice an i don't know him so without proof im left footing the bill. also i've just found out it's gonna take 4 or more weeks to get my dentures made and they won't start til after i've had my op so im gonna be without teeth for 4 or more weeks. is that right? im not going to be able to eat or talk properly? im Freakin out about it. i need a little luck in my life before i lose the fight in me completely.