Ask around your friends and dealers to see where you can get some high quality stuff. That's what I did. Turns out my dealer was selling me mids and getting himself some Hindu Kush from the same guy. By the way, Kush is a heavy indica, something you'd be interested in.

Do you puff alone man? You should try that next time if you don't. Especially with your preset anxiety, it's probably good to get used to puffing again all on your lonesome. Roll yourself a fatty and go for a bike ride some where.