buck im in the same boat,i dont even know if i like the person i am when im smokeing anymore,when i smoke i get increadably happy for a while then when the smoke clears i'm severly depressed,im alot dumber on pot,when i first started tokeing i loved the way it made my mind click it was like it got all the gunk out of my gears.My grades would sky rocket after i got though a nic smokeing benge but now...well not im failing two classes,i cant think when im high,and the worst part is that i know all this and every time i spark up i know what im doing to myself but theres now way i can just put the pipe down i know im addicted.i have to be high when i wake up,i have to be high at lunch,i have to be high when i go to bed.i hate knowing that im useing a drug as a crutch to escape the real world and i know i shouldnt do such things...but i do