Quote Originally Posted by Horsemanrocks
You have me worried friend....I hope all is well.

Namaste
Horsemanrocks.
I'm doing fine, at this time, but I have battled artiral disease since I was in my 50's. I have 1 carotid artery comepletely closed and the other 1 is 60% closed plus had a heart attack this past fall from a 100% clog in the LV distal. They stented it and it's fine but now have about 35% heart function, they talked about putting in a pacemaker (really a built in defibulator) and I balked at that. Figure I got a chance to die clean and not suffer too much with another attack or could now get lucky and die in my sleep. I've feared having a masive stroke and being paralized partialy and then lingering for years like my older brother did. While I'm being so upbead....

....earlier tonight I was with a frined and patient who was in hospice care, and he past away peacefully with his family and a few friends with him. Not only passed in his own home with some dignity, but he died in the same bedroom he was born in 86 years ago. Somehow I thought that was pretty great. Sort of a portal type of thing.

Yeah so while I have no plans to go yet, I am practical about it, I know it's coming. I have a slight eastern philosiphy about it all, and tonight I saw the portal of birth and death; your last breath is no different then your first breath.

I also stopped by the grow and things look good with the shiva skunks that are in flower. We gave them a new 1000w bulb a few days ago, and even tho the old one was in 9 months (I figure about 3500hrs use) and the bulb has a supposed life of 20,000hrs you can see an improvement in the plants. When they rate HPS bulbs with "initial" lumens they really mean initial.