Anti depressants can turn you into a zombie... I should know I've been on just about every one of them known to man. I quit taking them a long time ago, but i still have somthing totally fucked up in my head... I can't feel emotions like i used to anymore... I'm afraid I'll never be the same again. Its like i feel nothing for a while, then all of a sudden I feel very very bad, and then later i feel nothing at all again. For example, I used to get very emotional when anyone i knew died (even pets), but later after having been on anti depressants since i was 12 or 13 I could hardly feel a thing when my one of my cousins was stabbed to death, and then a week later when his brother committed suicide. These were people i knew well, people i grew up with and liked. These were my dads brothers kids... I felt nothing at first, (not shock just nothing) I felt nothing all the way to florida for his funeral... I felt nothing when i saw him in the open casket. I didn't feel a damn thing untill i was right next to him, and then all of a sudden I cracked up... I couldn't stop weeping... It went on and on for about an hour... Nothing could stop the terrible sadness i had. Then all of a sudden, it was gone again, and that empty feeling returned. A week later when after i had already flown back up to michigan, I got news that my other cousin, his brother, took an overdose of oxycodone(I think), and died... Again i felt nothing, (not even that sinking feeling in my stomach.) I thought about all the good times we'd had, I thought of the bad times. I tried to burn his face into my memory, I thought about him off and on for weeks. Still I only felt what seemed like a shadow of my emotions... Its so hard to describe, its like being uncomfortably numb... Eventually i was able to feel some grief for his death, but it was spread out in waves of feeling, and unfeeling. In case you were wondering, thats the way all my emotions are, not just grief.(though occassionally i feel somwhat normal) Most of the time I either feel hardly anything, or i feel way too much...

I now no longer trust psychologists or psychiatrists. They give you medicine that they know very little about. These are meds created and tested by the pharmaceutical industries. They are only given the very least amount of testing required for it to be approved by the FDA, plust they slant the results of there tests. Another problem is that they shove these drugs out on the market before doing any longterm testing, and even when its out on the market they still dont perform the long term tests, because if they found a problem now, they would have to recall it, get sued, and ultimately lose alot of money.

Prozac, one of the first SSRI, still hasn't had longterm tested done, and its been out since the 80's i think.

The only anti depressant I ever use now is the almighty ganja. Its also the only one that works, and it alows me to still feel emotions somwhat like a normal person.