Quote Originally Posted by fluid69
sucks don't it? I just lost one of my life long friends to cancer last month. she was a beautiful 30 year old mother, wife, sister, and daughter. loved life, loved music, loved going camping and burning one down. just doesn't seem fair.
fluid69; First, my deepest sympathies on the recent loss of your friend. Second, thanks for the post because you reminded me why this perticular case (young mother w/children) really made me so angry. "loved life, loved music,....." could have been written about my wife 22 years ago. I realized that in my mind I was experiencing the pain I felt back then, not of a slightly detached caregiver, but the pain of lossing a loved one way too soon.

Last night I had a conversation with a women who works as a physicians' assistant for an oncologist, her specialty is pediatric cancer. Talk about painfull stories; dealing with the innocents of children and the horrors of cancer. She was able to give me a new look at how to handle certian things in my mind, without becomeing too detached or cold with current patients.

"just doesn't seem fair" about sums up the frustration of it all.
Thanks again.