Quote Originally Posted by Purple Banana
I'm definitely daunted by all of the more logical courses I have to take (FOUR chemistries, two calculus classes, and two physics) because I have dyscalclia, and numbers alone just really frustrate me.
Dont worry about this... this subjects hardly needs any numeric calculations at all... in fact, in this subjects there are far more letters (and greek letters) than numbers, so you will even get happy when you see an old number lost among this subjects...

Quote Originally Posted by Purple Banana
I think I have a lot of things to uncover; I hide practically all of my emotions and interests from my family for fear of embarrassment; I have dozens of books on Richard Feynman, Milton Erickson, and for some reason, it would embarrass me if they found out. When I have a boyfriend, I am practically unable to show emotion, either love or excitement because my family's never really seen me express those feelings, and they would think it's odd. I don't know. There are just so many factors influencing each other, and I just want to get them straightened out because it's so frustrating.
Man... im pretty like this... but im not embarassed that my family know my interests... i hide myself from them (or from anyone else for this matter) because i feel that being "known" makes me more predictable, and thus more vulnerable, while being "mysterious" and "unknown" makes me less predictable and thus less vulnerable...
And after years of hiding my emotions i reached a point where i dont feel them anymore. Im impassible, both internally and externally at most situations... i wont say its good, but also it isnt bad. Its neutral. But as i was way more sensitive to the bad emotions than to the good ones, for me being "neutral" is an improvement, even if its a bit boring sometimes...