Growing Nightmare!

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It is often thought that your dreams are a way of working through your problems. The ones we can't face when we are awake.

Your plants dying isn't exactly a nightmare, but extremely vivid dream that scares you? Because if they died you'd be out the $ plus your time? Plus, no meds and can't talk to your wife?

Dude, you need some growing buddies, surely you have a friend to get with! Go to the MPP meetings in Riverside, at least get a dose while you are there!

This is a funny lol thread and a sad one! PR:hippy:

I think you are right on on alot of accounts there. I would love to have some growing buddies, but damn, I just have a hard time trusting people. Here everything is anonymous so it's easy, no one is knows who I am here, so I don't worry about any crazed cdot members showing up at my house and sticking me up, or trying to get me harassed by the all too willing riverside leo for any reason. (Or god forbid the DEA) It's funny, aside from 1 or 2 people, everyone that knows me has no fucking idea what I really do. In fact, recently, I had someone tell me at work that they thought I was mormon for some reason! LOL Can you believe that! I am not a native, and come from a place where mere posession is a serious criminal act, let alone growing. Now I am here, I am legal, but I am still highly paranoid. Nothing is garuanteed you know. You know a little about me, and my experiences here. After seeing what I have seen, it's like that song, "I always feel like, somebodies watchin' meeeee!" Hard to get past it when it hits so close to home.

I don't want this to be a sad, or downer thread by any means, just want to have this discussion in hopes of finding a way out of the woods, or at the least, maybe someone else in the same boat down the road will read this and it will make them feel a little better.
As far as going to meetings, yeah, I have a friend that I could go with, but at the moment he's a little tied up w/ some other stuff. :thumbsup: Hopefully someday.
When my family and I came out, him and his family were the only people that we knew literally, and if it were not for his genorosity, we could have never made it here. Just fucked up how shit happens sometimes, ironic too. Since I was 16, I knew the only thing that I really really wanted to do was come here, and grow my own. Now I am. It just so happens, that the only person that I would ever share this with, I cannot now. Everything happens for a reason though. I am sure that one day, everything will be as it should.
(BtW I was encouraged to go, and reassured that there really isn't anything to worry about, but this is the same guy that honestly believed that the DEA would never in a millon years target him either.)
That is one reason why I am so fond of this community, as well as the other one, aside from my family, (which doesn't want to know what I do), this is the only place I truly feel free to share. And even that now is limited. I decided to no longer post any personal grows here due to some wierdness that had been happening here.
(I do still post though. Just not here.):thumbsup:

right on. hang tuff bro. i also started having really vivid dreams and lucid dreams, where you realize your dreaming, :stoned: once when i had quit for over a month. i've heard that weed makes a person dream less so that when they quit the dreams come back with a vengence. :apachecopter:

i'm not sure if this really works but i've read that if you take Melanonin herbal supplements that this will help, i think weed drains the body of this substance or something. don't know if it really helps but its worth a shot.

my re-occuring nightmare when i quit was that i would be a party or something and someone would pass me a j, i would take a big draw and ahhhh, nothing but air. :wtf: :rasta:

LMAO! That is some scary shit! Hit the bone and nothing but clean air! AWWWW!
I will look into the melonanininaini thing. Can't hurt. I will do some research and see what I come up with.

or it might be Freddy, it is Friday the 13th

keep a close watch on that garden today

Yeah, 2 months in a row huh?

Ah, well I did not know the extent of your situation. You need to wait it out then dude, it's what you should do as a man for his family. Worry about getting the rest of your life in order, and by the time you realize it your ladies will be ripe for the picking. Just remember this is temporary, and keep in mind you will get absolutely fucking gongshowed the first time you smoke again. That always helps me whenever I'm on a break and I get a craving.. Just close your eyes and think of how high you will get. Always brings a smile to my face

It sure does make me smile when I think about that. My hashberry, satori, pure power plant, and mazar-i-shariff all on deck make me smile too! There's gonna be some plant sex happening at my house later this year!:jointsmile: I have always been big on long term plans, the waiting doesn't bother me a bit, and really, going without isn't terrible either, I keep pretty damn busy anyway. I can hardly wait to get my breeding on, and get a serious seed library, it's one of my goals and so far it's all going according to plan!
It's just the sleepless nights, and the crazy sleep when it happens. My wife has mentioned that since I have been 86 I am more moody, but I just told her to shut the fuck up and make me a sandwich! Then I went and whooped the shit outta my dogs, cat, and iguana! Fuck her! She don't know what the fuck she is talking about!
(I am kidding of course! I mean about the whooping the shit outta my pets, I would never just beat my pets for no reason.):jointsmile::thumbsup:

As for the crazy dreams, I am just gonna tough it out. Not much else to do. Just know that if you are reading this thread and are going through the same thing, don't worry, as I and many others have stated, it is apparently normal! That was my main concern. ANd really, if you can you should just get some cannabis, me, I just painted myself in a corner here, and although there were lots of great suggestions, I am gonna just hang in there. If I come across some cannabis, I won't turn it down, but I am not gonna be buying it. Maybe I will get some good karma, I am getting ready to give away about 8 of my MK clones, and then another 11 more in a few more weeks. The person flat out asked how much I wanted for them, I flat out told him, I don't sell period. Clones or chronic. Just won't ever do it. My payment, is just knowing that I am doing my part to spread this plant around, and subvert the government as much as possible w/ regards to cannabis laws. That's worth more than money to me. And if I do that, maybe it will rub off on someone else.
He just looked at me like I was fucking crazy.
Maybe he'll bring a blunt or something when he comes to get them. He is the only other person that I have a real personal relationship with out here aside from Mr. GPSANKLEBRACELETMAN, and he is the only other real person out here that knows what it is that I do.:jointsmile: I kinda communicate with a grower through him. Hopefully my plants will do the talking for me and him and his grower buddy will reap a nice outdoor this year!

Really just talking to you all in this thread has made me feel alot better. Granted, doesn't help me get to sleep or sleep in peace, but literally, when I made this first post, I was steaming mad in the middle of the day about a dream that I had. So I think I will just continue to drop in here and maybe give you some stories about my crazy dreams, until they stop. Again, I appreciate your support and kind words all.
Good night, have sweet dreams, you sleep lovin' jerky jerkfaces!:jointsmile:
Oh and if you need anything, I will probably be up for another 6 or 7 hours, just pop in! LOL