Growing Nightmare!

[8182KSKUSH]

Well, this would be the second time in a row that I have gone to sleep and had some horrible wretched ass nightmare about my plants. It's the same everytime.
I go in, everything is fine, and I look and everything is dead. Not just dead, but dead and rotten! Usually I can control my dreams really well and silly as it sounds, when I sleep, usually I realize that I am dreaming, even if it is a bad one, I am usually aware that I am dreaming and turn it to my will.
However these 2 were really different. They were very vivid, and I had no control. Just pure panic! Very emotional and upset. I wake up and I am drenched in sweat, so is the bed.
Even after being awake for a while, and realizing it was just a bad dream, and being an adult, it still kinda bothers me. I have actually visually confirmed that everything is OK twice! LOL I don't know if there is any relation, but I have not used any cannabis for about a month now. (I refuse to purchase it ever again, so I wait for mines.)
This last one was the worst yet, in my dream, when I walk in, the room is dark! Problem #1! (I am on a 24 hour veg). When I turn on my backup lights to see what the fuck is up, I notice my ballasts are submerged in water! As I said before, the next issue is #2, the girls are all "fin", ALL OF THEM! And nasty slimey and rotten!
I have never really had this happen before, I don't know if it is due to not using any cannabis, this is the first time I have been off my meds in oh, ...
10 years. Literally. Buying some is not an option, mostly due to my pig headedness, I could if I really really wanted to, but I just don't want to. Any good suggestions on how to get past this weirdness otherwise? The dreams are bad, but so is waking up in soaking sheets freezing my ass off wondering why the hell I am so damn cold if I am sweating so damn much? Makes no sense? Just started happening, the last few times I have gone to sleep, whether it is just a short nap, or for the night.
Weird huh?
In any case, just talking about this, I already feel a little better as it pertains to the actual dreams. I am gonna go stare at my girls now and tell them I love them, and that I can't wait to chop their heads off and light them on fire!:jointsmile:

8182KSKUSH Reviewed by 8182KSKUSH on 03-12-2009. Growing Nightmare! Well, this would be the second time in a row that I have gone to sleep and had some horrible wretched ass nightmare about my plants. It's the same everytime. I go in, everything is fine, and I look and everything is dead. Not just dead, but dead and rotten! Usually I can control my dreams really well and silly as it sounds, when I sleep, usually I realize that I am dreaming, even if it is a bad one, I am usually aware that I am dreaming and turn it to my will. However these 2 were really Rating: 5

[Dutch Pimp]

Lack of smoke, causes me to have nightmares, too! I've been on the wagon since the first of the year; and the bad dreams have been constant and never ending.......(I got skeletons in my closet)

I got a CARE package from a friend. The drought is over and the nightmares have stopped.....:thumbsup:

[JohnnyZ]

Pony up brother, head down to your local neighborhood drug dealer and buy a little ganja to hold you over. Don't be pig headed, think of it as a brief trip back to your glory days.. just a sweet walk down memory lane.

[8182KSKUSH]

Lack of smoke, causes me to have nightmares, too! I've been on the wagon since the first of the year; and the bad dreams have been constant and never ending.......(I got skeletons in my closet)

I got a CARE package from a friend. The drought is over and the nightmares have stopped.....:thumbsup:

Yeah, skeletons are not fun! Good to hear that it's not just me though w/ the vivid bad dreams. The other night it was this,
for some reason, my wife in my dream, had decided to let my dobermans maul some little kid, and there was nothing I could do but watch, then I confronted her, and she informed me that she had left my son alone at home! (He's 4)!
Then I for some reason could not get to him no matter what I was doing! And she was there at every turn, doing some weird shit to prevent me from getting there. It was just a long battle w/ her to get to my boy, when I woke up, I was so pissed, and even though it was just a dream, it really did affect my mood the whole entire day towards her. She would never really do that, either w/ the dogs, or my son, but for some reason, it just left this extremely negative attitude w/ me that I just could not get rid of. Sounds kind of pathetic, I have always been the type that thinks you control yourself and your attitude, but lately I just feel like I am possessed or something. She asks me why I am shitty, and I have no answer. What am I gonna say, "you were a real class act bitch last night...in my imagination!" Sheeesh!
Aside from that fun one, most have been about my stable.
But again, good to here that I am not alone on this one. Maybe I just need to stare at your avatar for an hour or so before bed time he he.

[8182KSKUSH]

Pony up brother, head down to your local neighborhood drug dealer and buy a little ganja to hold you over. Don't be pig headed, think of it as a brief trip back to your glory days.. just a sweet walk down memory lane.

It's not even that tough, I could just go to any legal clinic, anywhere in this state and have my pick of what I want. I just made a promise to myself that I would not, I spend too much time, and money on my grow to do that at this point. I have waaay more immediate needs that the money could be used for with my family. And to be honest, even getting it underground here in socal @ $10gram for the same top notch that I can get legally in the clinics is too much. I could blow $300 EZ in less than a month, then I am right back where I started, minus the $280. While that money could have been spent on more important things. It would be alot different if I was single, but I am not, and my number 1 priority now is my son and my family. I feel guilty enough spending the money, (more importantly time) that I do now on my ladies. The only thing that helps me justify that is the fact that down the road, in a year or so, I will have my shit down well enough so that there are no dry times, that's what I am working for. In the mean time, I just want to get by w/out. I just need some other way to cope w/ my own head until later this summer when my shit is ready. Again, any suggestion that don't involve running out and grabbing some is kinda what I am looking for. THat's the obvious answer, but there is really no way I can get enough to last me as long as I would need it to, therefore, that would only be a temporary fix. Kinda like putting a band aid on a severed leg! Thanks for the input though. Believe me, you aren't saying anything that "Bad KUSH" isn't already thinking.:jointsmile:

[Garrett]

Im having growing dreams too, but the exact opposite. Ill be dreaming that im moving my 1ft girls outdoors to my secret spot only to realize it was a dream when I wake up.....

I think its because this summer will be my first grow ever and im ordering some Early Bud seeds from Attitude next week. :jointsmile:

[stinkybudz]

ahhahahahaha your so funny that made me laugh so hard

The other night it was this,
for some reason, my wife in my dream, had decided to let my dobermans maul some little kid, and there was nothing I could do but watch, then I confronted her, and she informed me that she had left my son alone at home! (He's 4)!
Then I for some reason could not get to him no matter what I was doing! And she was there at every turn, doing some weird shit to prevent me from getting there. It was just a long battle w/ her to get to my boy, when I woke up, I was so pissed, and even though it was just a dream, it really did affect my mood the whole entire day towards her. She would never really do that, either w/ the dogs, or my son, but for some reason, it just left this extremely negative attitude w/ me that I just could not get rid of. Sounds kind of pathetic, I have always been the type that thinks you control yourself and your attitude, but lately I just feel like I am possessed or something. She asks me why I am shitty, and I have no answer. What am I gonna say, "you were a real class act bitch last night...in my imagination!"

[bestgreenthumb]

how about going back on your meds! sheesh .......lmao:rasta:

[8182KSKUSH]

how about going back on your meds! sheesh .......lmao:rasta:

That sounds like a great idea, but right now it's not really an option, and won't be until later this summer, after they are ready. Again, I was just kinda looking to see if anyone had any good alternatives, since that is not an option. Maybe you missied that?:wtf:
Hellooo? McFly?:stoned:
My meds = my cannabis.:jointsmile:
Just wondering if anyone has had similar experiences and how I may be able to get this to end w/out cannabis. My bed reaks of something horrible! The worst BO smell ever. Covers, everything! PUKE!

[Coelho]

Man... it also happens with me whenever i have a break... after the 2nd-3rd without smoking, my dreams start to get REAL vivid, and after the 4th or 5th day i start to get nightmares (vivid too)... and if the break is a forced one (when i visit my parents home, for example) all my nightmares are about weed, more exactly about someone discovering my stash and throwing it away, or about wishing madly to smoke but having no weed, things like this...

I dont know any way to stop them besides smoking... i dont know if they go away after some time, as fortunately i never had to stop smoking for longer than 1 week since i started to smoke daily...

Anyway, im sure that they are caused by the lack of weed and the fear of not being able to smoke again... a psychologist would have a lot to say about this... :jointsmile: