Im bipolar and live in toronto, been smoking marijuana ever since i was a early teen growing up. 3 years years back i was hospitalized for 2 - 3 months thanks to a manic episode which was brought on due to alot of stress and unforseen circumstances. I've tried many different pills and many different methods to combat this disorder for 2 -3 years nows - have in mood stabalizers(3), to anti-psychotics(2), to sleep meds, to anxiety meds. Doctor sais it might work and it might not,for a while now i've been going on and off bud for switching meds ( he's really against marijuana, but I think he's for suicide ), just last year i went through one of the werst depressions of my bipolar career and he didnt do nothing he just kept uping my dosages (he didn't even want to prescribe me anti-depressants cause of the effects on mania), the thing doctors don't realize is sometimes people don't stick around to wait for their meds to kick in 2 3 4 years later when the dosage is right at the right time when your probably feeling great anyways cause u have the life sucked out of you. Meds that have side effects you wouldn't believe each with their own type of cruelty socialy and mentaly. So for 1 1/2 year now i've been canabis free and off my meds - I feel ok, i guess (meds made it hard to just live life normaly - all meds are good for I think as someone honest is to make sure I don't endanger anyone else in the world, it does nothing for self harm and other sorts if its depression to suicide to stuck to your bed wishing it will end) The pdocs are just happy they turned anoher person into a unipolar zombie. I'm clean, but i've been drinking alot of lates and thinking about going back to old mari j for the pick up instead brain hemridging jacky d, wondreing if anyone knows a good doctor and i was wondering if that vancouver stuff is for real because they asked me for 350$ already and im alittle worried about it.

You know someone is manic posting at 4 am